Even when the clouds are grey, Honey makes it shine.

Yeah I know its a cheesy title, but it had to happen some time or another :P

As I'm conflicted with how to address the problem with Honey and her soreness, I have achieved another goal that I've had for a very long time.

It's weird to think back on the years of what I used to do, that slowly has stopped, or become limited, and not exactly knowing why. Sure there's been the fact that since 2007 I haven't owned a horse with heaps of experience, with my green horses... but neither of them were/are nasty! And things had stopped before I sold April too, so I'm not really sure, but as Mum and I sat in the specialist's office this morning talking about Bailey and April... I realised that lately I've been thinking more of the past and how much fun it was, than the present. And lately I've felt a few things that I've wanted to do, one was jumping again in the future, and the other is sit on Honey bareback.

As you can see from the picture attached, it clearly happened :)

I wasn't so much nervous as I was worried about -how- I was going to get up on Honey. Thankfully I didn't go flying over the other side of her, much like I had thought I would with my shocking balance. When I was up on her though, I felt a great deal of achievement, whilst Honey stood there dozing in the light rain. Although I was a bit worried about what I would do if she tried to move, I soon relaxed and as the above pic shows, I felt comfortable because my bad habit of gripping with my knee and thigh stopped and my leg was hanging loosely.

For me, there's nothing worse than not having a saddle. I like the support I can gain from having a saddle, and because I am aware when I lose my balance, I end up relying on my hands, I've never want to be horrible and haul on a horse's mouth, in a saddle, let alone without one. It's again something I need to fix, and on my list of things to improve in. So for me to take away a "life line" so to speak, shows just how much I trust in my mare... and in my ability. It's exciting to see bits of the past, returning to me as I gain more and more confidence. And hopefully it will continue!

As for other news, I have been offered surgery on my leg, after many years of waiting. I'm not too sure what to do. I've just gotten over two years of rehab, and gotten my life somewhat back on track... just to have more rehab, surgery and all that... its a lot to think over. I hope that whatever decision I make, it's the right one for me.

Chelle x